In Search Of...
By Cindy Hyde
Jesus said, I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No man cometh to the Father expect through me. Jesus is the Truth.
This verse describes me perfectly: 2 Tim 3:7 "Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth." Oh how I learned and learned and never seemed to find the Truth.
For years I searched to find something that would fulfill the emptiness within me. I looked in the Wiccan practices, I looked into the Native American Medicine Wheels, with their spirit guides and animal cards, which were similar to Tarot cards.
I looked into the ancient Cultic practices and owned a set of Ruin Stones. Although these gave me a sense of being connected to a higher power, I was still searching for truth. I was still empty. I knew there was something else I was missing.I began to search deeper and found Shamanism. I thought I had found what I was looking for. They were the Holy men and women of tribes. Otherwise known as witch doctors.
I knew that part of me wanted to see people healed. This was great because they did heal people. Didn't they? In my search for healing I read many books on the art of spiritual healing. None of them included the fact that we cannot heal. Only God can.
I had found something that I could totally relate to because I knew I wanted to help people. I knew there was something different about me. I knew that I was a Shaman.
Or so I though.I entered this new found interest as I did with all things, full of zeal and enthusiasm. They twirled and did many other things to reduce the consciousness in order to invoke the spirits to come and take over. What was required I did. I gave my body over for someone or something to enter me and operate through me.
It did not fulfill me. I was still empty and troubled. I needed to belong. I needed to feel loved. I needed peace in my life.
Everything that I had found only brought me more trouble for mind and soul because there was confusion. I was tormented by my past. Tormented by words that people had spoken over me. Tormented by spirits that didn't want me to find truth but to live a life of deception in darkness never discovering true love or true anything.
Oh how I look back on those days and think to myself how hungry I was. How hard I searched for something that would fill the need I had within me. I think that all of us are hungry for God. We fulfill that hunger by seeking a door to the spiritual realm through psychics, psalm readers, witches, horoscopes, etc. Never finding the truth. Never finding peace. Never finding love. Never finding forgiveness.I found everything I needed one day. I learned Jesus was as much alive today as He was 2000 years ago. I had believed in spirit and animal guides and considered them real because they could carry on conversations. Why was it hard for me to accept the fact that Jesus was real?
Well it was.
Why?
The spirit world is divided into two groups. Those who serve God and those who rebelled and were expelled from the heavenlies. Those who were filled with pride were cast down. They present themselves as angles of light as to deceive us until they get us deeply involved with them and start trying to get us to kill ourselves or someone else. Which is an extreme case, but so very true. They do now want to loose the grip they had on me.These two forces are at war with each. The Kingdom of Heaven and the domain of the damned.
Deception is so very subtle. An image, a word, a thought, a little acceptance here and there of things that we don't necessarily agree with and where does it lead us? I am going to be hard here for a moment - it leads you straight to hell. And hell is real.I was on my way there. I was a good woman. I helped others, but that is not enough to get us into heaven.
Believing in Jesus Christ and accepting Him into your heart is what it takes to enter into heaven. For God so loved the world that He gave HIS only begotten SON that whosoever believeth in HIM should not perish, but have everlasting life. You have a choice between eternal life or eternal death. We choose daily who we will serve. Choose wisely. This could be your last day.
The shed blood of Jesus is mimicked by the animal and human sacrifices in pagan practices. Before Christ blood sacrifices were made as an atonement for our sins.
Jesus was the sacrificial Lamb of God. He paid the death penalty for us. His undefiled, sinless, innocent blood was shed for you and I to cover each one of the sins we have on our records.The death penalty entered the picture when Adam and Eve disobeyed God in the Garden of Eden.
The blood of Jesus when applied, spiritually, is the most powerful thing on this planet.
A pastor friend of mine in Australia was helping a girl out of a cult. They took the girl into their home and was praying with her, and protecting her. The cult she was in often traveled out of their bodies.
They would leave and try to harm the girl in the home of the pastors. They could not penetrate the home. The pastors had prayed over it, plead the Blood of Jesus over it and anointed it with oil which symbolizes the Holy Spirit.
The wicked travelers later reported that they could not enter the home because the windows and doors were covered with flames of fire.She didn't say so, but I am sure that they wanted to know the what power was higher than theirs!
I pray that each one of them realize that God is the creator of every god and goddess that is set up on the face of this earth.Deu 10:17 For the LORD your God is God of gods, and Lord of lords, a great God, a mighty, and a terrible, which regardeth not persons, nor taketh reward:
Mark 12:32 And the scribe said unto him, Well, Master, thou hast said the truth: for there is one God; and there is none other but he: 33 And to love him with all the heart, and with all the understanding, and with all the soul, and with all the strength, and to love his neighbour as himself, is more than all whole burnt offerings and sacrifices.
1 Cor 8:6 But to us there is but one God, the Father, of whom are all things, and we in him; and one Lord Jesus Christ, by whom are all things, and we by him.
Eph 4:6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.James 2:19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.
When I began to learn about Jesus it was still mostly head knowledge. I had gotten saved at 15 but I never met Jesus. Until 93!
My life began to change. I called out to Him and He answered me in such marvelous ways. He showed me time and again the love He had for me. The very thing that no other search uncovered I found in Him.I found unconditional love. Jesus loved me and I FELT it. It was not head knowledge it was heart knowledge. I knew I was loved. When He began to love me He loved me right out of everything that was not good for me. Smoking, profanity, idolatry... etc.
It did not happen overnight. I though for a while that I could take all that I had learned and still be a Christian. I didn't understand about spirits and the deeper things that I have knowledge of now. It is wrong. I was wrong. But God was gentle with me. As I gained wisdom about His Word and His ways, I found myself wanting to obey them. I became hungry for God. Such an insatiable hunger overtook me.
I began to realize that for everything that is in the Kingdom of Heaven there is a counterfeit. I wanted the real thing. I had a taste of something that made me feel different about myself. My circumstances. I had peace. I had hope. I had not ever had that before.
I wanted more of that love. More of that peace. I wanted forgiveness for my sins. After 3 abortions I thought I was unforgivable and unlovable. Oh how my Jesus loved me right into being able to forgive myself and heal.I could talk on for hours about what Jesus has done for me. But I want you to know that the imitation power and the counterfeit imitations that are out there for you are not worth it. They will NEVER give you love or peace. They will never give you eternal life. Death is all they have to offer. Condemnation is what they offer. Guilt. Shame. Fear.
There is a difference between right and wrong. Just as much as their is between black and white. Truth and lie. Don't be deceived! Rise up and refuse to enter into the works of darkness that can come as light to our eyes.I pray that the God of gods open your eyes and your ears to hear and see the Truth. I pray that the Lord open the eyes of our understanding. That you will no longer walk in deception. Jesus died for you. He is real.
There is no comparison that I could make, no words that I could speak that would reveal what Jesus has done in me and through me in the last few years. I was lost but now I am found. I was blind but now I see. I was sinful but I am loved. I belong to the family of God. I have knowledge and wisdom and understanding that I would never have had without God in my life.
I speak all this to you with the utmost love, through the power of the Holy Spirit in hopes that you will consider all the things that have been twisted and turned into something that it is not. You have a choice to make. We are here for you if you need prayer. If you would like to accept Jesus as your Savior, you can simply ask Him to forgive you of your sins and to come into your heart. It's that easy. Do it today before it's to late.
Bless each one of you!
Pastor Cindy Hyde
This testimony is part of the
The Remnant Church Ministry.
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